Except here's the thing: despite waiting FOREVER for this book to come out AND buying it the very day it came out, I only started reading it last night. I know, I know... but so much of my reading and time has been dominated by Sift Book Reviews (seriously, if you haven't checked it out yet, you really should. Like now. It's called "open in a new tab," people.) That little fact didn't exactly stop me from doing Abnegation last week, but I wasn't as excited about it as I could have been.
But now I'm all in. So I'll tell you about my weak attempt at Abnegation last week and then I'll start strong this week with Amity.
According to the Divergent fansite, Abnegation means:
- To refuse or deny oneself (some rights, conveniences, etc.); reject, renounce.
- To relinquish, give up
I have three roommates. Our apartment was a disaster. I think you know where this is going. So my one act of Abnegation last week was to do a thorough cleaning of the apartment. It took two days - long enough for me to realize that this was as selfish as it was selfless. Sure, I was doing all the work even though everybody had shared in creating the situation ... but I REALLY like a clean house. And even though it took all of one hour for it to become messed up again, I enjoyed it while it lasted. I do think I would have made more of an attempt at Abnegation last week if I had already read the book and been able to fully understand what it means to be in a faction, but this is what I did.
I would like to say, however, that our modern society (especially in the area of the country I live in) makes it very difficult to be selfless. For one, doing good deeds has become incentivized by the true Abnegation members to the point where you can't do much without getting something in return. Also, and probably more locally, people really doubt your motives when you try to do something nice. I'm about halfway through Divergent now and I'm realizing this second point is something the Abnegation faction faces as well.
This week, I'm trying to embody Amity. I'm looking forward to it.
Quick semi-related note: I'm putting Year of Months activities on pause. Don't worry, it will come back, but right now I have a lot of other things I need to focus on. Like finding a job. And writing a book. And querying a book. <3